Maintain, maintain... maintain!!

Okay.. so we admit to our weaknesses to stay strong.  Thought I had this whole food addiction thing licked.. but even healthy foods over-indulged can bite us in the butt too!  I have relaxed on perfectly counting calories for the past few weeks, thinking I had it down pat.  Then.. Kroger had bags of nuts on sale, which I think are 'healthy', in moderation, moderation being the key word here!  My two weaknesses are cashews and macadamia nuts.  LOVE them!  So, I bought a bag of each and ate both bags over this past week, handfuls at a time.  (Noticed I said handfuls, not handful!).. Anyways, was up a few pounds 4 days ago, and my monthly came, so thinking it was that.  Got on the scale this morning and back up 6 pounds... YIKES!  I guess having  issues, with food addiction, is constant maintenance, or I could easily fall off that healthy horse and lose myself if I am not watching it.  Good to know.  I had a feeling I gained back a few, but was hoping not.  Well, not the case.  I wish I could relax now and then, not worrying about watching what I eat 24/7, but I guess it is like a job, to maintain fitness and eating healthy portions along with counting those calories!  So.. back to being strict again.  That is something I was hoping to have in total control and not have to worry about.  If this 'lifestyle' change is a job for the rest of my life, I am fearful of losing focus and becoming too relaxed, losing myself and my progress.  That makes it no fun and honestly.. since I am a food addict, makes it that much harder!  No more trigger foods in this house yet, I cannot control myself completely yet!  Oh!  Update on the co-worker thing.  Despite having lost so much, thus far, one of them proceeded to tell me I was 'too big' to fit in a chair, when we reviewed a quarterly audit together!  That hurt.  I mean, 6 1/2 months ago, maybe I could not have fit in this chair, but now?  That hurt, cause I have worked so hard.  Wonder how HR will handle this one??  I am not saying a word,  but when I get a chance, perhaps should let my boss know about this situation?  Well, have a blessed day everyone and take care!