They always say...

When God closes a door.. he opens a window.. Okay Maria.. where is my window (Sound of Music, in case you are saying "Maria?)  So.. Never knew my lifestyle change could help me lose so much excess emotional baggage, just to take on a whole new batch!  You know that whole ongoing co-worker mess?  Well, I have gave positivity, forgivenes, love, sharing.. tried tried tried.  Continually dodged each bullet with a smile or happy remark in return. Well. today, they won.. yep, they get the 'gold medal'.  Enough is enough, my dear readers.  I am throwing in the towel.  I tired sharing how wonderful Saturday was, especially meeting little Christian.  It was an honor meeting him and his parents.  I prayed Friday night to see them, let alone meet them, what a blessing.  This little boy has been all over the news, facebook etc.  You know?  The little one born with disabilities and his parents were encouraged to abort him.  Well, they chose to love him, raise him to be the best he could be, despite being born with disabilities.  That is what my company is all about, or thought it was?  The 'ring leader' at work, proceeded to tell me that she does not pay attention to that disgusting crap on facebook and looks at funny stuff, as she has just too much shit going on in her life to look at misery.  I tried to share how special this family is, for what they have accomplished.  Then her little side kick backed her saying that the parents did not abort him?  COME ON???  We work in this field.  Our early intervention program is affiliated with the organization I ran for Saturday.  So.. they win.  They tried every tactic.  I just got up and excused myself from morning coffee, aplogizing for sharing.  I knew I would cry in front of them, otherwise. Now, I am now going to set my sights on persuing other avenues in my field.  I am so saddened by this.  LOVE my management team, LOVE my case load & clients, but my mental health and well being is very important too, not to mention my upcoming mission trip.  I am physically sick (not gonna share details here) and emotionally drained over this today.  So.. God... waiting for that window to open.  God Bless everyone and hope you all have a wonderful week ahead.